Craig Minowa

Craig Minowa emailed me and I pretty much pissed my pants while my heart exploded in my chest all while I stopped breathing. I had probably the worst week of my life to date, mostly after last night. I gotta say I am feeling fine now, funny how little things can completely change the color of the world. What is the color of your world?

Mine is this color ------------> CLICK HERE

Sing I Love You All

Watch this:

http://www.roadrunnerrecords.com/shared/downloads/thedresdendolls/dresdendolls_sing_700.mov

Lyrics:

There is this thing that's like touching except you don't touch
Back in the day it just went without saying at all
All the world's history gradually dying of shock
There is this thing it's like talking except you don't talk
You sing
You sing

Sing for the bartender sing for the janitor sing
Sing for the cameras sing for the animals sing
Sing for the children shooting the children sing
Sing for the teachers who told you that you couldn't sing
Just sing

There is thing thing keeping everyone's lungs and lips locked
It is called fear and it's seeing a great renaissance
After the show you can not sing wherever you want
But for now let's just pretend we're all gonna get bombed
So sing

Sing cause its obvious sing for the astronauts sing
Sing for the president sing for the terrorists sing
Sing for the soccer team sing for the janjuweed sing
Sing for the kid with the phone who refuses to sing
Just sing

Life is no cabaret
We don't care what you say
We're inviting you anyway
You motherfuckers you'll sing someday...
You motherfuckers you'll sing someday...
You motherfuckers you'll sing someday...

Then listen to this:

http://www.theworldforgot.com/twf/mp3/boty08/Cloud%20Cult%20-%20Love%20You%20All.mp3


We are all people and we all deserve a chance. I'll sing for you if no one has yet. I love you all, never quit.

BANJO

I want to learn to play the god damn Banjo.

The Existence of Life is a Highly Overrated Phenomenon

On March 10, 2009 Michael McLendon of Kinston Alabama burnt his mother's house down after shooting her and her dogs. He then drove on to Samson Alabama where he shot and killed his grandmother, grandfather, aunt, uncle, and a child. McLendon then proceeded to drive around and shoot at people simple sitting on the front porches and some people at a gas station killing at least four more. After the police went after him he shot and killed himself.

The next day, a 17 year old in Germany returned to the highschool he graduated from less then a year ago. There he proceeded to shoot and kill 8 female student, 3 female teachers, and 1 male student. He then ran outside, shot and killed a man waking down the road, forced his way into another man's vehicle and told the man to drive. As the police began to chase him he ended up at an auto dealership and ran inside where he then shot and killed a sales man and a customer. Shortly after he went back outside and had a shootout with the police force shooting and injuring two officers. Eventually the shot and killed himself making the body count 16.

I cannot conjur the words to describe how this makes me feel. I wonder if that girl will be smiling this Thursday?

Elapse

Oh life, without you I would be bored and dead.

I have been thinking about time a lot recently. I am becoming increasingly more disturbed by how fragmented it is and how little of it we ever see. We only ever catch a second of it at a time, and to me a second is not enough to understand something. Yes we have video and camera equipment to document and record seconds in the past, but there is nothing there. A photograph of myself is a documentation of something that is not there not will ever be anywhere again. As a second is birthed a second dies. All that is falls in the realm of a second. I have a hard time grasping this. All of existence is contained on a single second at any given time. Insane.

So far throughout history, though history might be sham for it too exists in something that no longer exists (CONTRADICTION AHHHHHHHHHHH!), time has been flawless, for we have always experienced the next second following the one we currently were residing in, but what if time is not perfect? All of what we know would be doomed, for all that was, is, and will be (oxford comma alert) has, does, and will (x2!) exist in a single second. If a second ever failed to come there it goes. Everything lost and gone. As I had just typed the word "gone" that second is now gone and I will never live it again. That scares me. This sense of never going back, never seeing anything of that sort again makes this all seem so pointless. Who/what ever created this must known a big something we don't know, or is a complete moron

One second dies another is born, and we wait for our own time to be replaced with a new version. I am not really sure where I was going with this and I fear I never will, just needed to get it out. Thank you for sacraficing your seconds for me. I hope they did not die in vain.

Year Zero

It's Ok

Listen to this:

http://mineorecords.com/mp3/lotalk-its.mp3

It's Okay,
I don't even cry
all I think about is a memory
in that dream when you kissed my arm
as I look away, don't hear
what I say

That maybe when I die
I get to be a car
driving in the night
lighting up the dark.
something in your voice
sparks a little hope
I'll wait up for that noise
your voice becomes my home

Long way round, don't care what I find
A little thunder's good, I thought maybe you would
but it's okay, we all feel left out
sometimes growing up, it can get you down.

I give you some thing that no one's gonna to give you
my sleepin' skin and my heart deep down in you
I'll never tell you, but you're my little scar
Goodbyes are hard and they're hard and they're hard

Maybe when I die
I get to be a car
driving in the night
Lighting up the dark
Something in your voice,
sparks a little hope
Ill wait up for that noise
your voice become my home

-Land of Talk-

I can't get over that thought of becoming a car when I die. That is one of the most beautiful things I have ever heard in my life. Everyone want's to be remembered after death, or to go to heaven, or to go to hell, or for nothing to happen. I feel these desires are too much for the human mind to lust over. Even reincarnation is too much for me to handle, but this idea of a car simply lighting up the night... holy shit. I wish that someday I can have such simple needs, wants, and wishes. I think we would all be happier if that was the case. Life would be quieter. Tomorrow would come and go, and conversations would be warm. Life is glass and dreams are clay. What are you molding?