comission fur on fur (aka Chewbacca Riding a Giant Squirrel Fighting Nazis) by gamefan84
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
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Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Other People
I feel bad for other people. This is not because they are below me or that I am a better person. I feel bad for other people for the fact that they somehow get blamed for how dissatisfied I am with myself. Let me explain.
In today's world it's hard to not just sit back and absorb the fuckton of information and stimulation floating around our heads. And if you are a social networking/technology whore such as myself this turns into a fuckton of fuckton of information. All day long I read other people's blogs, look at their photos, marvel at theirs drawings, listen to their music, watch their videos, consider their opinions, read their writings, compare their lives to my own. And this is what upsets me. A little voice in my head goes off screaming at me about all the stuff they can do that I can't. All the thoughts they think that I won't. All the opportunities I miss out on that they didn't. And it just plain sucks.
Now if there is one thing I've slowly come to realize is that we humans are more alike then not. If this is true that means most everyone else is feeling this way too. Usually this would come as a comfort to know that you're not alone. Knowing that other people in your class bombed a test that you failed is almost as good as the feeling you get when you get an A. We are social creatures, we don't like to be alone, no matter how much we like dig into are little comfort holes of depression and isolation. But I digress. Usually knowing others are feeling the same as I is a comforting thought, but in this case it's not. Because no matter what I do, I will not be able to convince myself I am as cool/funny/witty/talented/smart/creative/amazing as everyone else around me. And the best part is, that's not even what I want.
I don't want to be able to say, "Wow I'm awesome at ________." That feeling of mediocrity is the fuel that drives us to keep being better. Maybe not everyone needs this, but it does help. Anytime I take a photo I am proud of I will see something that blows mine out of the water (in my opinion) and all I wanna do is top that. And in a way this is very helpful in the long run as my work will get better in someways or at least my experiences will grow. But until I am an old man looking back at my life I won't be able to appreciate all I've seen and done and read and thought. And in a world where I have a 3G Internet connection in my pocket practically anywhere I go I want my satisfaction NOW!
I realize this is a bit insane to wish for as I know the world does not work in such ways. If one of my biggest problems is that I don't think I do enough cool shit then I think I am living a pretty happy and comfortable life. So for now I will continue to feel bad for other people while I silently sit there and hate them for their achievements when all they really deserve is praise for their awesomeness. All I can hope for is that some people hate me for the same reasons.
In today's world it's hard to not just sit back and absorb the fuckton of information and stimulation floating around our heads. And if you are a social networking/technology whore such as myself this turns into a fuckton of fuckton of information. All day long I read other people's blogs, look at their photos, marvel at theirs drawings, listen to their music, watch their videos, consider their opinions, read their writings, compare their lives to my own. And this is what upsets me. A little voice in my head goes off screaming at me about all the stuff they can do that I can't. All the thoughts they think that I won't. All the opportunities I miss out on that they didn't. And it just plain sucks.
Now if there is one thing I've slowly come to realize is that we humans are more alike then not. If this is true that means most everyone else is feeling this way too. Usually this would come as a comfort to know that you're not alone. Knowing that other people in your class bombed a test that you failed is almost as good as the feeling you get when you get an A. We are social creatures, we don't like to be alone, no matter how much we like dig into are little comfort holes of depression and isolation. But I digress. Usually knowing others are feeling the same as I is a comforting thought, but in this case it's not. Because no matter what I do, I will not be able to convince myself I am as cool/funny/witty/talented/smart/creative/amazing as everyone else around me. And the best part is, that's not even what I want.
I don't want to be able to say, "Wow I'm awesome at ________." That feeling of mediocrity is the fuel that drives us to keep being better. Maybe not everyone needs this, but it does help. Anytime I take a photo I am proud of I will see something that blows mine out of the water (in my opinion) and all I wanna do is top that. And in a way this is very helpful in the long run as my work will get better in someways or at least my experiences will grow. But until I am an old man looking back at my life I won't be able to appreciate all I've seen and done and read and thought. And in a world where I have a 3G Internet connection in my pocket practically anywhere I go I want my satisfaction NOW!
I realize this is a bit insane to wish for as I know the world does not work in such ways. If one of my biggest problems is that I don't think I do enough cool shit then I think I am living a pretty happy and comfortable life. So for now I will continue to feel bad for other people while I silently sit there and hate them for their achievements when all they really deserve is praise for their awesomeness. All I can hope for is that some people hate me for the same reasons.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Mr. Firth and an Intro to LEDs
One of the people who really got me into video art initially was David Firth, the creator of fat-pie and Salad Fingers. At first I liked him because of his funny/scary/weird falsh animations, but soon I stumbled upon his video work. While mostly consisting of stop-motion work, there was something about them that always seemed a bit deeper and meaningful to me.
While I don't plan to do a video much in his style, he has been a huge inspiration to me and my work with video.
I am not sure about any of you, but when it comes to LEDs and me all I know is, "Look at the pretty colors!" Before I embark on this LED/VIdeo project I should learn me some stuffs about them. If any of you care to learn too, I found a quick and easy tutorial on them here.
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